Thursday, August 2, 2012

Collecting or Hoarding. When A Passion Becomes A Burden

     I have always been a collector. I have the need to own artifacts, whether it's that Nintendo game cartridge, that mint condition magic card, or that mint condition comic book; I have a compulsion to own it. Often it's because it holds an emotional significance to me, that somehow having the object cements those feelings & that time period more than just the memory I have of it can. The tactile experience of picking up an item is often the key to unlocking memory and feeling for me. I can say this about the things in my collections that I hold most dear to me without shame or apology. But that is far from the extent of my collecting desires though. The reality is that while I do collect for markers of my past, I also collect just to have the items.

This is currently my "comic book room"

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      It's becoming a problem. My wife says only half-jokingly that I'm a hoarder. I say that's impossible! How could I be a hoarder when all my comics are bagged, boarded, organized and preserved. In my heart I know she's right, and I've spent a lot of time thinking about the compulsion of collecting and what it means to me. When I look at a box full of, for example, Teen Titan back issues I know they aren't something I will ever read again, but at the same time there is no part of me that thinks "Just give them away then, sell them, get them out of the house". That would mean giving up a part of me. Comic book collecting is a complicated hobby for me. I love to read comics. I read them as a kid and discovered them again a few years ago as an adult. I read them voraciously. At the same time I buy back issues by the bundle, often never read them and keep them in boxes with the intention of having them there for the rest of my life. Why?
     My own self-reflection makes me think of my childhood. I grew up in a small rural house in an area that at the time had little access to popular culture. I didn't lack for food, shelter, clothing, love, or really much of anything. What I didn't have was exposure to much outside culture til my middle school age. Discovering music, movies, and most importantly to me, comic books, was a revelation. This world that I had never know was suddenly open to me and I couldn't get enough. This lasted til my mid teenage years and the obsession of comics transferred itself to collectible card games, but the obsession to collect, to own, didn't slow down. I felt that if I didn't have it, I never would be able to have it, and by having it, it made me more important, more valuable.
     I'd like to say that this feeling, this need, to own things has changed over the years. There isn't redemption at the end of this confessional. It isn't a cry for help. I enjoy collecting. I enjoy getting that rare back issue, or that box of comics of Craig's List that I can comb through. I have a spouse who keeps me somewhat in check and a budget to limit my spending. But in the end I wonder if I will mature and have a time in my life where I don't feel the need to have all these items. Will I be able to keep the symbols of my past that mean the most to me and let go of the rest? Right now that's not a future I can envision, but the future isn't written so only time and space can tell.


  1. Dude, right on man..Loved this post! I can, and I'm sure every other comic collecter can relate!

    And stand in awe of your massive collection!

    Love the pics!

    1. Thanks Kyle. I'm trying to think more about the desire to collect. What owning something really means. Maybe work towards letting those desires go, refocusing the energy. Its not easy.

  2. Great post, Aaron --

    Life often becomes about pressing the cosmic reset button. Having just moved into a smaller space and lugging all those long boxes along for the ride, I realized that it was time to reset. I need the space and the cash more than I need the memories. It was sort of a cleansing experience for me.

    Now I'm contemplating going completely digital (wait, this may be cheating).

    1. Thanks Daniel! Im a lot of ways I feel like a goldfish. When we bought this house we got a lot more space and dont have any plans to move anytime soon so I have expanded and acquired to fill the space I have. It may be trite at this point to say it, but that line from Fight Club "the things you own end up owning you" can have a lot of truth to it.

  3. Great topic Aaron. I feel you there man. What I do now is I make rules on what I buy. Basically I buy indie/creator owned floppies, and for the big two I tell myself that I will wait for the trades. Unless of course its an awesome team (Daredevil). This has helped a bit because sometimes when the trade comes out, I realize I am not interested. With floppies I could get in a mode of wanting to own the WHOLE set, even if some of the issues sucked. There was a point where I wasn't enjoying Hickman's Fantastic Four, but I bought it just to have all of the issues.

    Great thing & bad thing about DC trade paperback output is that they don't put it out often. They're so bad at the TPB output that you endup saving money by never buying it. :p

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